Yeah, why? Why am I alive? What is the meaning of my life? With only one fact at my disposal, I made a myriad of possibilities, probably 80% of these are total BS, and started stressing over these lies.
I mean, I only know one thing: she said she was on a date.
So, what if they...ya know, become a couple. Will I lose everything? Or will I just say, haha, fuck this, I still have a lot of chances in life?
I do know that logically, this is just a bump in the road for me. But right now noone could make me realise it. I don't want to acknowledge the truth. Is suffering that fuckin' good? Or am I just enjoying a time of my life that has drama, romance and suffering in it? Is this just some vacation from my laid back lifestyle?
Dunno. =/
Anyhow, gotta continue my studies. Laturz.
2011. március 11., péntek
2011. március 10., csütörtök
This might be the day I will always regret. Or it might be the day I just didn't do anything.
Well, this was one of the most boring, blank and gray days of my life.
To top it off, She was on a date with someone.
Yeah. And that someone wasn't me.
He.
Wasn't.
Goddamn.
Me.
That struck me down for some time.
And when I started to stand up from the hit, it dawned upon me.
I'm a real retard I guess, if I look at the situation. So here's the deal:
I relized that if she was on a date with a guy.
Guess what?
There's a guy other than me who's interested in Her.
Yeah, now imagine...nah, don't.
I'm a big sack of regret and anger. I so really hate myself and everything.
Fuck this, I'm off.
To top it off, She was on a date with someone.
Yeah. And that someone wasn't me.
He.
Wasn't.
Goddamn.
Me.
That struck me down for some time.
And when I started to stand up from the hit, it dawned upon me.
I'm a real retard I guess, if I look at the situation. So here's the deal:
I relized that if she was on a date with a guy.
Guess what?
There's a guy other than me who's interested in Her.
Yeah, now imagine...nah, don't.
I'm a big sack of regret and anger. I so really hate myself and everything.
Fuck this, I'm off.
2011. március 7., hétfő
Ze first, but not exactly megfelelően bemutatkozós. more like that thingy
Ya know, közepénél kezdődős.
In medias res. Kitaláltam 1 perc alatt, muahahaha. No google used. ;p
So, yeah, I had this feeling that it was kind of time to write something.
Its like those webcomics that have 5 active months of strips and celebrate 5 year anniversaries, lol.
So I dusted off this little bugger to share something with my audience.
The non-existent one, as nobody knows about this, only some google-gangstahs.
Uh, what now? Oh yeah.
Soooo. 3rd line that starts with so. Bah! Anyhow, I wanted to share this one little feeling with teh internetzorz.
She's right there and I just can't muster the courage to slam myself in front of her and ask her out or tell her what I feel. Not even chat with her in the kitchen or on msn. Bah, gonna make my move tomorrow. I hope.
And thats it for today. :F
In medias res. Kitaláltam 1 perc alatt, muahahaha. No google used. ;p
So, yeah, I had this feeling that it was kind of time to write something.
Its like those webcomics that have 5 active months of strips and celebrate 5 year anniversaries, lol.
So I dusted off this little bugger to share something with my audience.
The non-existent one, as nobody knows about this, only some google-gangstahs.
Uh, what now? Oh yeah.
Soooo. 3rd line that starts with so. Bah! Anyhow, I wanted to share this one little feeling with teh internetzorz.
She's right there and I just can't muster the courage to slam myself in front of her and ask her out or tell her what I feel. Not even chat with her in the kitchen or on msn. Bah, gonna make my move tomorrow. I hope.
And thats it for today. :F
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