Why?

Yeah, why? Why am I alive? What is the meaning of my life? With only one fact at my disposal, I made a myriad of possibilities, probably 80% of these are total BS, and started stressing over these lies.
I mean, I only know one thing: she said she was on a date.
So, what if they...ya know, become a couple. Will I lose everything? Or will I just say, haha, fuck this, I still have a lot of chances in life?
I do know that logically, this is just a bump in the road for me. But right now noone could make me realise it. I don't want to acknowledge the truth. Is suffering that fuckin' good? Or am I just enjoying a time of my life that has drama, romance and suffering in it? Is this just some vacation from my laid back lifestyle?
Dunno. =/
Anyhow, gotta continue my studies. Laturz.